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07 May 2014

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

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Dalam perubatan, terdapat sejenis penyakit yang dipanggil Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) atau penyakit was2 yang merupakan masalah psychiatry yang berlaku dalam 10% daripada keseluruhan penduduk dunia serta tergolong dalam kumpulan anxiety diorder.

Obsess = menghantui/obsesi (pemikiran yang selalu menghantui atau bermain diminda seseorang)
Compulsion = kewajipan (rasa perlunya melakukan sesuatu, jika tidak melakukan akan berasa resah)
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Antara tanda2 seseorang itu mengalami masalah OCD ialah :-
  1. Selalu risau tentang sesuatu (seperti risau tangan kotor atau dijangkiti bakteria)
  2. Rasa perlunya melakukan sesuatu untuk menghilangkan kerisauan itu seperti dengan mencuci tangan berulang kali walaupun tidak kotor
  3. Merasa tidak senang sekiranya tidak membasuh tangan tersebut
  4. Menutup serta membuka pintu berulang2 kali walaupun telah dikunci dan selalu berulang kali check either pintu benar2 telah dikunci (car or pintu rumah)
  5. Selalu ragu2 adakah dapur gas/oven/laptop or any electrical appliances including switches already off
  6. Suka mengira sesuatu dan mengambil masa yang lama untuk mengiranya kerana mengira berulang2 kali
  7. Menyusun alatan atau mengemas rumah mengambil masa yang lama untuk memastikan susunan adalah tepat dan tidak bengkok
Dalam banyak2 tanda tu....no 4 until no 6 always happen to me
No 4 - Keluar je dari kereta, of course akan kunci pintu..tet (bunyi tekan kekunci lock la kunun2)..pastu akan automatic try tarik pintu kereta...owk, kunci..jalan beberapa tapak mulanya pikiran jadi confused betul ke kereta da locked?? Patah balik check...paling chronic da masuk rumah kunci pintu, lepak2 tetiba terfikir balik...betul ke da locked?? Sure ke??? Paling tak sker smp tak boleh focus nk buat apa2 sampaila keluar balik g check semula...chronic x chronic tu??? Pintu rumah tak terkecuali jgk, same situation jgk......da kenapa kan?????
No 5 - Da jadi habit lepas masak (masak ker??? masak owk, cuma kadang2 hoho) kan off tombol dier kan...da lepas masak harusla makan kan...kan...kan?? Tengah makan boleh pk, eh betul ke da off dapur tu?? G balik check................... Same jgk if nk tgglkan rumah, mesti g checkla berulang kali betul ke da off...including all switches ok! Lampu, kipas bla3...smp naik penat check berulang kali..............
No 6 - Kira duit..kira barang..eh, semua yg melibatkan calculation la...berulang2 kali akan kire tau
No 7 - Ni paling x boleh blah jgk. I paling pantang orang sker sepah2, x kemas, pengotor & yang seangkatan ngannya.........n tak terkecuali orang yang sker sangat usik barang2 I or barang2 yang I da kemas. Rasa migraine n panas satu badan dibuatnya, da la I jenis orang yang organize and cermat (tak tipu owk). Ingat lagi masa kat matrix, pinjam2 note (bukan galaxy note k), report, tasks kan..I punya la jaga all those paper x bagi kemot2, terlipat2, kotor...bila orang da pinjam2, lunyai bila smp balik kat I..harusla I mengamuk kan, pastu I siap salin balik buat baru b4 submit kat lecturer..ko rajin nk buat balik?? X tau la kan korunk chaner, tp I mmg spesies macam tu, kepala otak I sakit tau if x buat semula! Tak kirela kertas tu penting or not, I tak sker lipat2...mcmn I dapat mcm tu la I simpan (serious x tipu jgk). Cter masa matrix jgk, tilam katil ktorg x lembut macam dunlop or pe2 la tilam yang letak jari pun tenggelam tu...So, cadar katil I akan sentiasa kemas setiap masa, tegang n rapi je (sampai macam tu tau)...setiap kali orang dtg mesti terkejut n puji..tapi kan...tapikan....bebudak class I if dtg discussion or chit chat kat bilik I mesti sker terjah katil I, kemot2kan then blah...arghhhhhh, rasa nk gugur jantung I tengok menda kedut2 neh tauuuuuu

Kesimpulannya, adakah I penghidap OCD???
Tepuk bantal terus Zzzzzzzz.......................... (besok2la I pkkan huhu)

06 May 2014

Words Do Hurt


Words do hurt and have the power to be very destructive
Whoever said "Words don't hurt" is a liar
Words can rip your heart apart, make you cry and end relationships 
Some people said that action speaks louder than words, but sometimes words can hurt more than anything else.....

A tongue has no bones, but it's already strong enough to break a heart
So, be careful with your words...once they are said, they can only be forgiven not forgotten
And it's all up to me, whether to forgive or to forget...got it??
Just remember that a true friend's silence hurts more than enemy's rough words
...and I chose to remain silent

I believe that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that....but it's not easy
Sometimes we aspect more from others because we would be willing to do that much for them, in fact I did.....
We've all been hurt by words before. So, before you speak, think about how your words might affect someone else
But I've learned that sometimes you have to hurt someone's feeling just to let them understand how it felt when they hurt yours
Because most of life's greatest lessons are learned through hurt and pain........
So, never push a loyal person to the point where they no longer care

Care too little, you will lose them
Care too much, you will get hurt

Spiteful words can hurt your feelings but silence breaks your heart~

05 May 2014

Unwell

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I'm sick..................and yes, I'm sick again............................
I couldn't remember when was the last time I felt sick....
Cuz, normally I bukan jenis yang mudah jatuh sakit, I jarang demam...batuk...or even selsema...and I'm so thankful for that!

But for these past few days....I feel a bit unwell....
Something just went wronged..........
I am currently experiencing a very unstable body temperature during day and night, lack of appetite and my head hurt so bad
I hardly did anything but laying in bed and not moving around actively
...and I'm getting a bad night's sleep almost everyday

I was supposed to drive back to Pjy this morning but last night I couldn't get to sleep at all and my chest hurts so much
I takde batuk2 pun..but why out of the sudden dada I sangat sakit???
So I cancelled my plan untuk balik and went to see the doctor for a checkup
Bila I sampai clinic..ramai yang sedang menunggu.........biasala, nama pun clinic kan huhu
Sepanjang masa menunggu tu, my feeling all mixed up....I was scared at the same time
Is something wrong with me?? Why I rasa macam suffocating and feel like wanna to throw up??? I cuba yakinkan diri that I just have a nasty burp and I'm overreacting towards it huhu...
Tunggu punya tunggu, at last...after about more than 1 hour of waiting...my name dipanggil.........
I told the doctor about all my symptoms....the doctor check here and there sambil bla3....
The doctor also asked me whether there's something really bothering me for the past few days??
Which I said "Yes!"..... The doctor also said that it could be one of the reasons.....heol
I'm totally immersed with that thought which I can't bluntly share here..........and it really scared me to death T_T

The only thing I can do is praying hard...because I believe that nothing that's greater than ALLAH...
He knows best...
Allah Almighty has put me in such situation for a purpose. I should face it with wisdom, faith and determination...
May Allah grant me complete health and courage to get back on my feet fully...
May Allah enable me to recover fully from this malaise...Aaamiiin.